My Christian Diary

Hello All, Grace and Peace be to you! I kept some wonderful kids today and we had a blast! At one point, Jacob, a wonderful 5 year old, came into the kitchen with a chair, a guitar, and a Darth Vader voice changer/helmet/mask. He then sat down and began to sing me a song. Here's Darth Vader singing with a southern accent... It was the cutest thing! SOOOOO, I did what anyone with camera would do...I grabbed it and ran into the kitchen. This is what I got...LOL! Enjoy!!!!!



Though I have not been able thus far in my life to birth a child, GOD has given me two children through adoption, and wonderful children to care for while mommie's run their errand's; what a blessing GOD has given me in HIS WORD! Look what nugget of truth I found...
Psalm 113:9 says...
He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the LORD!

Hello All, Grace and Peace be to you. I am so happy today! My six year old son was baptized today! What a blessing it is to witness this! He approached me with the want to get baptized. I asked him some questions to find out if he was ready to ask JESUS into his life, he was, and he asked JESUS to come into his life. Randy was on deployment at the time and I told Brandon to wait until Randy came home to witness it. It was an awesome day for Randy and I.

A few months ago, Alyssa was saved and baptized. Randy and I are so happy to know that both of our children have HEAVEN as their home. I know that as long as they are here on earth, satan will mess with them and they will go through trials, but they have GOD to help them as they grow through it all. They have HEAVEN as their home, and GOD to dwell with for eternity! PRAISE BE TO THE ONE AND ONLY TRUE LIVING GOD! THANK YOU JESUS!

My prayer is that everyone will come to know JESUS as LORD and SAVIOR of their life.

JESUS...Don't leave earth without HIM! IF you work for the Master, the benefits will be out of this world!

Hello All, Grace and Peace be to you. Sorry it has been a few days since I have been on, but I have not been well, but I am getting better.
Tomorrow my son in getting baptized! I am so happy! He is six years old and understands totally why he needs JESUS! He approached me in June and wanted to get baptized. I told him that he had to ask JESUS to forgive him of his sin's first. He told me that he wanted to, but I had to know for sure if he really understood why he needed JESUS. I asked Brandon why JESUS had to die on the cross. Brandon said, " It is because I am disobedient to you mommy. Like when I do not pick up my toys when you ask me to." I said, " ok, good! GOD gave us some rules to go by in our life and if we break them we sin against HIM. Brandon, do you know what stealing is?" Brandon said, " yes, it is like when I go to Natalia's house and take a toy from her and I never tell her and I never give it back." I said, " very good! You know GOD said not to lie. Have you lied to mommy?" He said he had. I then told him that because he had lied and he did not listen to mommy when she told him to clean his room, he had sinned against the LORD and in trouble with HIM and on his way to eternal punishment. (Growing up in a Christian home, he knows about HEAVEN and hell.) He then told me that he did not want to go to the Lake of fire. I told him that he did not have to go and all he had to do was pray to GOD to tell him that he was sorry for his sin. Then he bowed his head and asked GOD to forgive his sin and he believed GOD and the BIBLE to be truth. He asked JESUS to help him in his life to be good.
I tell you the truth, when I witnessed this, I was in awe of GOD and HIS mighty love that could come through the heart of a six year old boy.
I know he has HEAVEN as his eternal home and GOD will be his GOD forever. No one can take him out of the FATHERS HANDS. PRAISE be to GOD!
THANK YOU JESUS for saving us who believe from the wrath to come. My prayer is that all will come to know the SAVING GRACE OF JESUS!

Hello All! Grace and Peace be to you! I am so thankful that I have such a wonderful family. I have a wonderful husband and two wonderful children. Today we put up our Christmas tree and we had a blast! We made cookies, hot chocolate, and put up the tree while listening to Christmas carols. Randy and I have made this a family tradition in our home and it is my favorite time of year! To be able to share it with a family is such a blessing because there was time when being a mother seemed to be a dream.
There was a time in my life before my relationship with CHRIST that Randy and I really wanted children. We wanted children from the beginning of our marriage in July of 1995 and three months after our wedding day, we found out we were pregnant. We were so happy, but the joyful moment did not last long, four weeks after finding out I was pregnant, I miscarried. Three months later I became pregnant again, and again we were jovial about the new baby, yet again, another miscarriage. I can not express really how we felt. My heart ached for some time. I would even cry at pamper commercials. Time went on and I healed, but in my heart I really wanted a baby. Then I became pregnant again three months later, and like before, we start out exuberant, but it ended in a miscarriage, I felt so dejected. It was up, down, up, down and I just wanted off this roller coaster ride.
I went to see the doctor to do some tests. Test after test after test, and nothing showed as to what was wrong with me. The doctors kept telling me to keep trying. So we did. We kept trying until I had my ninth miscarriage. The doctors were baffled as to what could be the matter. Everything showed up on paper that I was normal in every way and I should be able to carry a baby to full term. Tell that to my body! The doctors finally told me to stop trying.
In 1997 I was soundly saved and baptized. I accepted CHRIST and asked HIM to be the LORD of my life. As my relationship grew, I came to know through the BIBLE, that I could take any and all matters to HIM in prayer and I did. I began to cry out to HIM about my longing for baby.
After some time, my heart was leading me to research the adoption process. My husband and I went to some classes and did our research. We put a portfolio together to submit to various adoption agency's. One year my mom, sister and I went to a women's Christian conference called " Heritage Keepers". At one of the tape tables of one of the artists ( Kathy Trocolli) who was performing there, I saw a lady who attended my church working the table. I went over and talked with her a bit and found out that she worked at a place called "Pregnancy Crisis Center". This is a place that counsels females that are faced with an unwanted pregnancy or they just need some guidance and/or assistance about their pregnancy. The counselors share with the girls about options they have, that abortion is not the only option. Finding parents for the children might be the better option. I am so thankful for this place! PRAISE GOD for such places.
My friend told me to bring our portfolio to her office and she would show our portfolio during the counseling sessions. One day we get a call that we need get to her office as soon as possible for an interview with a young lady. We rushed there and interviewed for about an hour, then we went home to wait for the call to see if she had chosen us. Three hours went by and the adoption attorney called to tell us that the young lady had indeed loved us and wanted us to be parents to her soon to be born son. Jovial could not really explain just how happy we truly were. We hugged, cried and then ran outside to our neighbor friends yelling, "WE ARE GOING TO BE PARENTS, WE ARE GOING TO BE PARENTS!" We were so ecstatic!
We had the interview in May of 2002, and Brandon was born in July. It was the hardest two months to get through, but when he was born and the young lady completed the adoption with the signing of the papers, it was well worth the wait. For a while I would ask myself what I would have done if would have had to wait the whole nine months and I would answer...I am so happy I never have to find out! LOL! I am so in love with my son. It is definitely a match made in HEAVEN.
One night during one of my miscarriages I was laying in bed bleeding and in pain, a scripture recalled to my mind. It said that we are to give thanks to GOD in all things. I asked GOD why would I thank HIM for such a rough and painful experience, but I wanted to be obedient so I did. I guess I will really never know why I had to lose so many children, but when we left the hospital with this brand new baby boy, I looked up towards the HEAVENS and I said, "THANK YOU GOD! THANK YOU!"
This was the beginning of GOD filling our home with sweet, loving children. After Brandon, I have had two more miscarriages, but Randy being in the ARMY brought us to Belgium where the fertility research is twenty years advanced than the States. Coincidence?...I think not...GODincidence!!!
I have come to find out that my thyroid was producing antibodies that were attacking and killing my babies. I have had my thyroid removed and on my way to trying again after the new year.
If I never have any from my own body, I feel truly content in my family life, because GOD had brought us a wonderful son and then last year GOD brought us Alyssa. GOD is truly the one who can bring miracles in our lives. I prayed for children and HE gave me children. Randy and I are truly blessed. I could not ask for a better family. Only GOD and GOD alone could knit together this sweet family and HE gave them to me.

Hello ALL! Grace and Peace be to you! I came across this video (Lifehouse "Everything" Skit) a while back and I just fell in love with it. I hope you will all love it too! It really spoke to me of how we (humans) get so easily distracted with the worldly ways, but JESUS is always there trying to get our attention and welcome us back into HIS arms. ENJOY!!!!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!

Hello All! I hope you all are having a great day in the LORD! I have been on the go all day.

Whew! I am so tired today, but it is a good tired though! :)

I just want to pass on how important it is to tell someone about JESUS. Whether it is in the store, Walmart, ( Ahhh Walmart... we do not have a Walmart here in Belgium...BUMMER!) at work, or just anywhere. All you have to do is open your mouth and let THE HOLY SPIRIT work. You might say that you have a fear of rejection, but remember that they would not be rejecting you. Our command is to tell others of the GOOD NEWS ( GOSPEL) of JESUS. It is not a failure if a person rejects the news of JESUS, it is a failure if you do not open your mouth to share. The BIBLE says that GOD is the ONE who draws them, so pray and let GOD lead you. You never know who is ready. Trust the HOLY SPIRIT promptings when you feel like you should tell someone.
Another thing you could do is buy GOSPEL tracts and give them out to people who pass you by. Can you imagine how many souls could get saved? It is amazing when you think of it. You might say that you do not know where to get tracts. Go to your nearest Christian book store they should have some, but if you really want to step it up, go to "Way of the Master" and check out the site. This site is a great tool to increase your witnessing knowledge, and it has a store with a plethora of GOSPEL tracts to choose from that is so affordable. Way of the Master also has training tools to help you on your way to becoming a witness. This ministry is so SPIRIT filled that it has spilled over to me and I am ON FIRE to tell others.
I hope to hear from someone soon telling of their witnessing story. It helps us all if we share our ups and downs. What worked and what did not. I am excited to hear from you all. Please leave comments and let me know how you are doing. Let me know if you have a site for me to see. Maybe we can link each others site. Let me know! Smiles!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

Hello All! Sorry I have not been on in a few days. I was not feeling well, but I am doing much better. PRAISE GOD!
Today I want to tell you about a lesson that GOD taught me and I hope it will help someone else out there. Well, where do I start with this? HUM??? I guess I will start at the beginning ... It was 1999 and Randy's brother was in a horrible car accident that almost took his life. He was in the hospital for sometime recovering. PRAISE GOD he survived! He had a family which included a wife, an 11 year old and a new 4 month old baby. The house they were living in was pretty old and falling apart and they really needed another, especially with the baby.
Randy and I got a loan for them to get a house with the understanding that in time they would take over the note. Randy's brother recovered and went back to work and was doing real well making payments on the property.
A significant change took place over the course of a few years. In 2001, Randy went through a lay off at Boeing after the terrorist attack happened. He began taking some classes while he was on unemployment. Before Randy lost his job, we had been putting out our portfolio to many adoption agency's. We were trying to fill our home with children, but repeated miscarriages was preventing us from doing so, so we were trying to adopt. During Randy's unemployment season, we had an interview with a young lady who needed parents for her soon-to-be born child. We were elated to find out that she wanted us to be "said" parents. After we brought Brandon home from the hospital in July of 2002, I just wanted to stay home and be with him, but at that time I had to continue to work while Randy was still going to school and unemployed. After about 4 months I became pregnant again, and again miscarried. It reinforced the feeling in me that I needed to be home with Brandon. So, Randy had to make a serious decision...to stop school and get a job, but the economy was not good. Where would he get another job that would keep us in our home and keep us living the way we had been accustomed to? He could not locally, but he could enlist in the military and he could work and I could stay home and raise Brandon. It was a hard decision for us to make, but we chose to take the leap. It was scary, but worth it!
Randy left for basic training and AIT in 2003 and we were in Belgium in January of 2004. I told you major changes in our lives! It was hard going through it, but I can attest to you today that we are stronger people for all we have gone through. It is hard enough to be new parents, but to be new parents, change jobs, move from our home, leave our family and friends and go to another country all within 18 months was a bit much to handle, but again, we are stronger people because of it.
OK , now that you have the back story I need to get to the lesson GOD taught me. ( HE taught me many things on my journey, but I have one lesson in particular) So remember Randys brother had the house and making payments, ( remember that the deal was that they would eventually take over the note) he and his wife split up and each had moved out of the house. They never took over the note and also, we found out that they had quit making payments on the property. They abandoned the home, left us in serious debt, and on top of it all they refused to help us get it in shape to sell. It was left with so much junk inside and out and they would not even help get THEIR stuff out. We are in Europe and living on a meager military pay. We do not have extra money to pay for anyone to care for the property, so some of my family that lived not far from the property took charge and worked hard to get it cleaned up and in selling condition. THANK GOD for them! WHEW!!
My heart was heavy and I just wanted to find them and yell at them for doing this to us. How could they do that after we had helped them? My heart continued to get angrier and angrier at them. I would even pretent to talk to them in thin air just to relieve my stress. The house has been on the market for some time now and no one is intrested, and in this bad market, I was feeling defeated. Then GOD spoke to my heart. HE said, " The devil is a liar. Trust in ME and I will help you." I immediately became so peaceful. It felt wonderful to feel peace again in this area. But HE was not done with me. HE also told me that in order for HIM to forgive this debt, I would have to also forgive my brother and sister in-law for thier debt against us. It was so strong. I asked GOD to forgive me for harboring bitterness for them and to help me forgive them. HE told me that their spiritual wellbeing was more important than the large loan that is due. I felt ashamed of myself and for the first time I could think of them and actually feel love for them. I saw them through the eyes of GOD. HE wants them in HIS kingdom and if I continued the way I was going I would never show the true love of GOD to them. I would have done what the devil wanted and that is to hate. The BIBLE says that anyone who hates another person is equal to being a murderer. I thought about that I was horrified to think of myself as a murderer. Well, forgiveness abounds here in our home and I know for sure beyond any shadow of doubt, GOD HIMSELF will help us sell the property and all GLORY will be HIS.