My Christian Diary

Hello All, Grace and peace be to you from our LORD and SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST.

Sorry for not being on for a few days. I have been low in spirit. I thought I was pregnant, but the test came back negative. Randy and I are at a place where we can try again now that all the surgeries are done. I am happy that we can try again, but the first try failed. :-(

I know it could take some time, but I have waited sooooooo long already. With eleven miscarriages and a failed In Vitro Fertilization, my patience are wearing thin. I turned 41 this July and I feel that my clock it ticking louder and louder.

We are blessed though, GOD has blessed us with 2 wonderful adopted children. Alyssa and Brandon are our hearts walking around with legs. We love them sooooooooo much!!! I just want to try once more to have a baby from my body.

I do trust GOD, I may not understand everything, but I know HE loves me. HE said in HIS WORD that we would have trials, but to count it all joy. James 1:2-4 says, Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials,
3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance.
4 And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

It is hard to be joyful during the process, but I know GOD will bring joy in the end, and I will be lacking nothing. Praise GOD! I am glad that my circumstances do not change my true joy in the LORD. No matter how much pain I have, when I look to GOD I feel peace and joy. HE is the source of my true joy, true happiness and true peace.

It is funny, today I wanted to cry, but when I thought of GOD and HIS love, I could only smile. It was as if HE came to me and wiped my tears, gave me a hug and just loved on me. That is how I felt. Is that true comfort right there or what??? Praise GOD for HIS awesome comfort. I am still a bit bummed, but over all I am good.

And as my Pastor says...A faith not tested is a faith not trusted. AAAAAAAMEN!

If you all could pray for us, I would really appreciate it. GOD bless you!